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It is heartbreaking to be typing this. I am still in shock. Mainland actor, Kimi Qiao Ren Liang is dead. This fact have been confirmed by his studio via weibo. He was only 28.
To pay my tributes to him, I’m going to write him a letter. It is filled with many personal thoughts and emotions. If you just want the bare facts, you can head over to cfensi for a short & succinct post instead.
Hi Kimi, there are many rumours regarding how you died but I refuse to discuss it until an official statement has been released. I understand why people might be so curious and interested in it because this is ideal trash-gossip fodder but I feel offended by them. I wish they would stop it and stop tarnishing your reputation even after your death. Even if it turns out to be true, why can’t they just move on with it and let you rest in peace? That’s the least they can do to show some respect for your death. But honestly, I can’t blame them. If this had been anybody else, I might just be on those people gossiping right now. But because it is you, I can’t and I won’t. I wish you knew your place in my heart.
I won’t label this post as a ‘NEWS’ because the interest in news fade very quickly and their lifespan lasts about three days. You are not a piece of passing news. Your passing is a loss I will always remember.
I’m not exaggerating. I wonder if you know that you have quite a presence here. My very first photoshoot post was dedicated to you. The first variety show I covered was We Are In Love Season 1 where you were easily my favourite out of the entire cast. My very first Weibo Round-up post ended off with a cute picture of you. I even declared my love for you here. You have became a part of my life unknowingly and this is the reason why I am here at 4am, writing a letter to you. I was supposed to be sleeping but I checked my phone notifications in between sleeping and got shocked awake.
When I first saw your news, I was in disbelief. I had hoped that it was some publicity gimmick. That people were trying to rake up views from unfounded rumours. In fact, when I started googling (in english) and saw that ‘Kimi Qiao Ren Liang death’ was not even an offered suggestion, I was hopeful. It was only when I started to search in Chinese and got onto Weibo that I realised… the news have been confirmed by your agency. It is probably factual. Breaking news? Yes. But more like, heartbreaking news.
Like many people, I first saw you in Legend of Lu Zhen. I remember my first impression of you very clearly. I thought that you looked a bit odd initially but you grew onto me over time. There was this aura about you that kept drawing my attention and this is why I remember so clearly about how my impression of you was formed. Now that I think of it, your character and story with Yang Rong (starring as Xiao Huan Yun, your wife) were the best part in that hot mess disguised as a inspirational drama named Legend of Lu Zhen. Despite that, I’m almost ashamed to say that I was eager to move on with my life after that mess and I didn’t bother to find out who was the actor playing the character Gao Yan.
While many people remember you from Cruel Romance as Xiang Yingdong, it was Tiny Time (drama) that had me completely sold. As a fan of Chen Xuedong, I was initially disappointed that he was only acting as a supporting cast instead of Zhou Chongguang like he did in the Tiny Times movies. I eventually realised that was a blessing in disguise because the actor who played Zhou Chongguang in that drama was you. That drama introduced me to you. That drama started it all. I loved your performance in that drama. It might not have been a very popular or mainstream drama but nobody can doubt that you shined in there. After completing that drama, I did a little search on you and realised you were the Gao Yan I liked from Legend of Lu Zhen. And I was immediately impressed. Good in both historical and modern dramas in different ways — that got to be talent.
That was when I started paying attention to you aggressively. That happened to be the period of time you were plastered all over my blog. To tell you the truth, I was never interested in We Got Married (Korean) and the format of that show but I anticipated We Are In Love which was adapted from the former because I knew you were starring in it. In fact, it was through blogging about We Are In Love that motivated me to learn how to take screencaps for my blog. I would like to thank you for motivating me to be better and I’ll also thank you on behalf of my readers because they get pretty screencaps all thanks to you. While we are at this topic, I’ll share some screencaps I had of you from We Are In Love that I never got around to posting.
I just went onto the Youku mobile app and I am heartened to see many tributes paid to you. They have compiled playlists of movies you have starred in so it’s easy for us to find them and rewatch. I just downloaded three of your old movies and I’m ready to marathon them. I guess you would like to be remembered this way, as a good actor with growth (while being handsome and charming at the same time). At least, that’s how I will remember you — at your best.
I’m not sure how I am going to enjoy the recently released So Young 2: So You’re Still Here which stars you as the second male lead (which coincidentally happens to be a semi-antagonistic character I really like). I read the novel and was planning to eventually watch the movie so I can see how the story is butchered but now, I think I will only be able to focus on you if I watch it. I will definitely catch your unreleased works, Stay With Me, when it airs because it is your work but I’m really not sure how I should feel about it.
I’m not sure I have entirely absorbed the fact that you passed away. It still feels so unreal. This was really unexpected and shocking. And I genuinely feel sad. This is not the first time somebody in the entertainment world died young but when I read articles regarding those, I’ll just go “Oh. That’s sad. Rest in peace” and not get affected by it because those people meant nothing to me. But you do. It is the loss of a loved one. Hence, even though I don’t like to harp on sad news, especially in the entertainment world where we are all seeking pleasure, I will be sticking this post as the top post for as long as I want to. You deserve to be remembered.
Kimi, oh, Kimi. I hope you are in a better place. I wish you are happier now. I’ll miss you. Please rest in peace.
I’m sorry if this chunk has been incoherent. I just wanted to get all these off my chest. Life is short. Unexpected things happen. Cherish the people around you. Show them you care. Tell them you love them. Don’t wait for it to be too late. Don’t make it a regret.
I love you, Kimi.